Stained

I don't know if I should be here
I don't know if I should stay
I've kept conclusions in a book with my dreams
But I'm not feeling very brave
I am stained
I am stained
I don't know if I can hold on
I'm not sure that I still feel whole
We're so desensitized by our short term ideals
That self-expression seems unreal
Now I am stained
I am stained
Oh I am stained
Oh, oh I am stained
You and I we were an institution baby
And I thought we'd overcome the rest
But even those who choose to walk the higher wire baby
Sometimes need a safety net
I don't know if I should be here
I don't know if I should stay
I've kept conclusions in a book with my dreams
But I'm not feeling very brave
No, I am stained
Oh I am stained
I am stained
I am stained
I'm stained
Oh Lord oh
And I'm not?